Trigger Warning: This post contains content relating to suicide. If you, or anyone you know, needs assistance call Lifeline on 13 11 14. In the case of an emergency, dial 000. 


I’ve never seen that before.

I’ve never seen you before.

I’ve never felt such calm resolution in someone before.

Yet the fear.

Your eyes were closed. You were waiting for the moment.


They were so focused.

They spoke to you softly.

He threaded his arms through yours, held your chest.

Nurtured you.

Drew you back.

To safety.

To life.


When I am in nature

When I am in nature

When I am in nature I feel God.

I feel everything and nothing, all at once.

My purpose is clear;

you are my Alpha and my Omega.

You are my fulfilment and my whole,

everything I am, and can be, is made possible because of you,


This living, breathing, organism that heaves and sighs,

is turbulent and calm.

You feed me. You are me. You are God.